Jumbled thoughts on this snowy day

So, it's been roughly six years since I updated this blog. Was'nt planning to but I've been feeling a bit down lately. Free flow writing. Just putting into paper whatever comes to mind. Tears on my eyes, thoughts jumbled, music in the background. The world is round. I knew it. All good things usually come to an end. Torn between two close friends. Toxic workplace. Noone to really talk to. Faith on one's self and faith in God keeping me standing. If the world becomes unbearable and you're tired of keeping yourself upright, kneel they said. Might just do that. Why did it become so complicated? Adulting is hard. Self-realizations. I need the beach. I need to see a beautiful sunset. I need to feel that everything will be ok. It will, won't it?